jack kerouac and childhood memories

When I picked my high school senior quote, I wasn't attempting to be morbid or predict sad, melancholy feelings across the rest of my life, I was just looking for a good quote that described what I was feeling.  For the first time since my "group" of friends came together (and fell apart, and then came back in a different way only to fracture and rebuild yet again, etc., etc., etc.) I felt like the world was jettisoning us only to be ripped apart by whatever or wherever we landed.  I was positive we would land in the same vicinity, and that we would stay in contact and to some extent that has remained true.  I was just trying to express what I was feeling, and so I picked Jack Kerouac's famous quote from On The Road.

"What is that feeling when you are driving away from people, and they recede on the plain till you see their specks dispersing?  It's the too huge world vaulting us, and it's goodbye, but we lean forward to the next crazy venture beneath the sky."

I actually hate Kerouac as a writer.  I find him the epitome of worthlessness, but this one little quote has haunted me since the day I picked it up from the ending of some crazy film.  I saw an old Disney movie--from back when Disney actually spoke to a generation through actual, realistic events from society.  It is called Wish Upon A Star and it brings back so many memories.  Memories of watching it while drawing up house plans, while building models of buildings, while being a nerd in general, but also memories of watching that film and being confident that I would find absolution the same way those high school girls did.  Looking back, I haven't found it, and when considering Kerouac, I realize that the world will always be too huge, it will always be vaulting us.  The best we can do is hold on to each other and hope for the best.

I have never been very good at leaning on people.